Thursday night.

Caroline and I had dinner at PF Chang’s. Dinner was great and it was good to catch up with my friend because I hadn’t seen her for awhile. And she had a surprise. She is pregnant! This has really been a jolt to me. It seems like everybody I know here lately is settling down, starting families, making roots. It’s starting to make me feel out of place. I know its most girl’s fantasy, the wedding, children, growing old together. I don’t know if that’s for me but when it seems like all my friends are doing this I feel a lot of pressure about it. On top of this my mother is constantly asking when I plan to settle down. I just feel like that switch inside me hasn’t been turned on yet. I don’t know, it’s just kind of gotten me in a bad mood. On a brighter note after dinner we went downtown to the pedestrian bridge. It is really pretty at night and a good place to just sit and think. Oh I just feel blah today. At least I will get to pick out a baby shower gift in a few months. I absolutely love shopping for baby clothes, which is kind of weird since the idea of motherhood seems foreign to me and I don’t know that I ever want to have kids.